Well, I contract with the National Guard in a few days. That will be fun. I'll pull in that fancy ROTC money soon, which will be nice.
Saw Black Swan with some girls. It's my second time seeing it, and I still enjoy it thoroughly. I recommend everyone go see it. Sexual, thrilling, beautiful and entrancing; can we really ask more of a good movie? I'm not sure the context in which I saw it though, but I figure that will work itself out in time.
Cat and I are getting along well, he's attacking a bag while I do this write up, so we're about regular.
It will be interesting to see how I react to some things this semester. I'm getting lonelier, and I think in response I'm starting to branch out in my social group, grasping at what I can in order to be happy. Also as a result, I'm much more agitated than I'm used to. I think I'm appearing more and more calm, I'm talking less, taking on more responsibility, but inside I'm aware I'm a ticking bomb. I'm not sure what it will be that pushes that button for me to do something stupid, but it's there, just a matter of time to see what the situation is that ignites whatever it is that is stirring up inside me.
I'm stronger than ever. I'm in better shape. I'm faster. My reflexes are sharper. And I know more now than I ever have. But I'm also resenting every single moment I'm around people, and hating every moment I'm alone. Ugh, it's a weird feeling. I'm having a lot of those, two sided, confusing, unproductive feelings recently. I've got to work on this.
Anyways, pity party over. Time to put on some Clint Mansell and drift off,
Angel
20110115
20110109
Entry 28
Well, day one is tomorrow. I've got a good set of crazy-ish classes, getting excited for that. Didn't hit my goal for muscle growth this month though, which is sad but I'll get over it.
Alright, we're going to have a bit of experiment for the next week. Although I am currently in the thought processes of asking one person out, I believe that a new semester necessitates caution. I will be meeting new people and also doing more things with people I already know.
In this light, I am giving myself a week and a half, ten days, to make a decision. Subject 1 is who I currently think I will be courting. She's very smart, she's attractive and she's methodical. I approve of all of these things very much. She's a solid possibility, and one that I see myself being happy being around.
Subject 2 has interests that coincide with mine, but she's annoying in large doses. This is made confusing by the fact that she is very pretty. I am to play this cautious, because I do believe that it would be a bad thing to be with her, a very heated bad thing, but a bad thing nonetheless. She's a potential, but not likely. It all depends on how much I wish to let my hormones go ahead and run with this rather than my brain.
I expect more subjects to present themselves in the next few days as I start classes and meet people within my major. But I am making a decision on what to do within 10 days, otherwise, I am a fool.
Angel out.
Alright, we're going to have a bit of experiment for the next week. Although I am currently in the thought processes of asking one person out, I believe that a new semester necessitates caution. I will be meeting new people and also doing more things with people I already know.
In this light, I am giving myself a week and a half, ten days, to make a decision. Subject 1 is who I currently think I will be courting. She's very smart, she's attractive and she's methodical. I approve of all of these things very much. She's a solid possibility, and one that I see myself being happy being around.
Subject 2 has interests that coincide with mine, but she's annoying in large doses. This is made confusing by the fact that she is very pretty. I am to play this cautious, because I do believe that it would be a bad thing to be with her, a very heated bad thing, but a bad thing nonetheless. She's a potential, but not likely. It all depends on how much I wish to let my hormones go ahead and run with this rather than my brain.
I expect more subjects to present themselves in the next few days as I start classes and meet people within my major. But I am making a decision on what to do within 10 days, otherwise, I am a fool.
Angel out.
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