Back to the blog, forgot about it for a while now.
Since then, school ended, got my unit, XO and PL for some felons, fun times? Fun times.
Got a girlfriend for a few months now, it's not working well, but we're still together, so there's that. Seeing her later today for the first time in some weeks. We suck at communicating, so it might not work, but we're trying.
Camping tomorrow. "Camping" in a cabin. Bringing music and writing materials. At least my MOLLE, maybe my ruck. We'll see.
Yeah, she's still a problem, but we're keeping at an arms length to keep me functional. Anyways, just going to chill out and keep trucking.
20110719
20110402
Night before drill, and all through the house...
It is incredibly hard to give up. I can't do it. I have a new female friend, but I can't let go of her. Just goddamnit. Christianity = her. Hard problems = her. Heartache = her. I can't stop it.
Her old boyfriend, she saw a future with, he said there wasn't one. With me, there can't be one, but it's all I want. After everything, the curse words, the fights, screaming, crying, self injury, breaking possessions, fast drives and PST, I still want it. The more I try, the more I cry, the more I hurt, the more I want it to work.
My homework was to keep moving on, except I find it harder and harder to do. She's been why I've tried for so long, that now I can't DO things without thinking about her.
The only time my mind is clear is when I'm in the field. Every mission can't come soon enough.
Her old boyfriend, she saw a future with, he said there wasn't one. With me, there can't be one, but it's all I want. After everything, the curse words, the fights, screaming, crying, self injury, breaking possessions, fast drives and PST, I still want it. The more I try, the more I cry, the more I hurt, the more I want it to work.
My homework was to keep moving on, except I find it harder and harder to do. She's been why I've tried for so long, that now I can't DO things without thinking about her.
The only time my mind is clear is when I'm in the field. Every mission can't come soon enough.
20110203
Entry 38
Kanye West is way too good for being that much of an idiot.
Heartless is one of the best singles I've ever heard.
That's all.
Heartless is one of the best singles I've ever heard.
That's all.
20110127
Entry 37.5
STX Lane was great. I mean, it was a grade A clusterfuck, but it was still fun. We were supposed to ambush the enemy, then a fraggo came through and we were supposed to capture the enemy.
What happened? I caught an ambush on US just before it happened. Kept the whole squad from getting caught in a lane of death. I was pretty happy with myself, even if I did get "shot in the face" and died because of it.
Our SL was a little shaky on what he was supposed to do and we got in a crunch for time because of a miscommunication with Higher. But all in all, it was fun.
I'm going to go pass out until the ruck march,
Angel
What happened? I caught an ambush on US just before it happened. Kept the whole squad from getting caught in a lane of death. I was pretty happy with myself, even if I did get "shot in the face" and died because of it.
Our SL was a little shaky on what he was supposed to do and we got in a crunch for time because of a miscommunication with Higher. But all in all, it was fun.
I'm going to go pass out until the ruck march,
Angel
Entry 37
Well that blew. PT Test sucked.
My last one was 100/88/62-ish and this was 90/78/72 or something like that. It just doesn't cut it. Gotta get my run and situps back to decent levels. My upper body is finally improving, but it won't cut it either, gotta get better.
I overslept and was late for the test by about ten minutes, no one was mad, just laughed and sighed because it's the first time that's ever happened to me. Stupid alarm and it's not going off *checks phone to see something* PM THE ALARM IS SET FOR 5:40 PM. GAHHHH.
Freakout over. I passed, that's what matters. I'll kick the crap out of my February one to make up for it.
That's it,
Angel
My last one was 100/88/62-ish and this was 90/78/72 or something like that. It just doesn't cut it. Gotta get my run and situps back to decent levels. My upper body is finally improving, but it won't cut it either, gotta get better.
I overslept and was late for the test by about ten minutes, no one was mad, just laughed and sighed because it's the first time that's ever happened to me. Stupid alarm and it's not going off *checks phone to see something* PM THE ALARM IS SET FOR 5:40 PM. GAHHHH.
Freakout over. I passed, that's what matters. I'll kick the crap out of my February one to make up for it.
That's it,
Angel
20110125
Entry 36
Yay for a cleanish apartment. It's pretty exciting. All the dishes are done and the kitchen wiped down. Next is my room, then the living room and lastly the bathroom.
Microbes! You will be defeated!
Microbes! You will be defeated!
20110124
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