Well, I contract with the National Guard in a few days. That will be fun. I'll pull in that fancy ROTC money soon, which will be nice.
Saw Black Swan with some girls. It's my second time seeing it, and I still enjoy it thoroughly. I recommend everyone go see it. Sexual, thrilling, beautiful and entrancing; can we really ask more of a good movie? I'm not sure the context in which I saw it though, but I figure that will work itself out in time.
Cat and I are getting along well, he's attacking a bag while I do this write up, so we're about regular.
It will be interesting to see how I react to some things this semester. I'm getting lonelier, and I think in response I'm starting to branch out in my social group, grasping at what I can in order to be happy. Also as a result, I'm much more agitated than I'm used to. I think I'm appearing more and more calm, I'm talking less, taking on more responsibility, but inside I'm aware I'm a ticking bomb. I'm not sure what it will be that pushes that button for me to do something stupid, but it's there, just a matter of time to see what the situation is that ignites whatever it is that is stirring up inside me.
I'm stronger than ever. I'm in better shape. I'm faster. My reflexes are sharper. And I know more now than I ever have. But I'm also resenting every single moment I'm around people, and hating every moment I'm alone. Ugh, it's a weird feeling. I'm having a lot of those, two sided, confusing, unproductive feelings recently. I've got to work on this.
Anyways, pity party over. Time to put on some Clint Mansell and drift off,
Angel
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